One way to find out more about what happens to me is the internet. I found this little guideline in the internet on a Austrian page and i like to share this. It is really worth to think about this. There are some stages, some recommendations which i like to comment as well.
But before i start with it just a few remarks about today. It was just a good day at work and i had a lot of fun doing my sports tonight. Now i am on the way back to my hotel and i am looking forward to dress myself as a woman. This is my highlight of the day.
I wrote about this illusion visiting a gender therapist. Last night before i finally felt asleep i thought about this once again and i dreamed the same again, but more in detail. But this time the main issue was the first contact and what i will write to her as a introduction of myself. It was quite interesting to remind me on some stages i reached. This is a very good introduction about this little gender guideline. Feel free to comment this. I really will appreciate this.
Every single step is worth as long as it is a step to your own gender
1. You realize already for a long time that you want to experience the other gender for yourself? What does it really mean? Lust? Passion? Do you promise yourself a escape from your current life situation? Check it. But be careful, what will happen, if you switch to a woman or man. If you live with somebody else talk to her, to him and share this experience.
it was some curiosity, but as well a special demand i had to wear female clothes and actually at this time i was not able to think that how far this will leads me.
2. Just try it. It does not make any sense just to dream about this. You can not learn the experience of gender at home alone. Go out in your other gender. This is not forbidden, there are no reason to blame yourself for it, if it is just a part of you or could be a part of you. But go to locations or events, where you can live your other gender safely. There are many crossdresser, transgender events out there. Just check the typical web sites.
yes this is so true and i did it and i do it. it is just being myself. and it fells wonderful.
3. Now you can feel something of what it means to be a woman or man in the society. The other glance, yes, do you succeed to deceive other people? But what does it mean for you? How did you experienced yourself? What was different to the imagination or illusion you had before?
it was really strange but i liked it.
4. Talk to somebody. Talk about it with your best friends. You nedd support if you continue to walk this way. You need any advice, as well if it hurts. If somebody says you move wrongly is more worthfully as somebody just take it as it is and does not talk about it.
5. Go out as much as you can or want, just be yourself. Accept und do't be disappointed if you are not perceived as a man or woman at once. Boys and girls need years until they become woman or man. Why should it be different for you?
6. Get to know other transgenders. Realize where the problems are and if you thinking about little things. Try to learn from the experience of others.inform yourself about the risks and usage of hormones and about transition.
7. Is it really important for you to continue? Think about the different op-tions you have. There are a lot of different legal regulations. Think about it if the official way of transition fits your demand. But if you say yes, this is absolutely what i want it is time to see a therapist who is specialized in gender issues. But take your time you do not have to decide right now.
8. Does it make sense to you? Do you have doubts? Looking for answers in chatrooms, forums. Contact self help groups, you might find answers for your questions and find ways you can take as a guideline for your-self.
9. Present yourself to your friends. Explain them. It is not necessary that they hear any rumors about you. But don't give them the feeling that they have to judge you.don't be afraid: real friends will accept you. And just be honest you don't have to get along well with everybody. Some people will only needle you with this anyway.
10. Teach yourself to be a woman or man, just one woman, just one man, who you really are. You will realize to find new ways to express your real personality, your true identity. Live it the way you want, but be careful, what is really you and what is a mask you use to survive. Don't take it wrong.to live really your identity you have to get rid of the mask, but be yourself.
11. Good friends are a very important support. But for them it is mostly very difficult to accept you in your new gender and still talk to you as you were just the one you used to be. Others just only seem tolerate your new gender. But help yourself. Find new friends who only knows you with your new name and gender.
12. As a mtf you will spend a lot of time to get the body you want, to re-duce the hair grow at places you do not like at all. There are a lot of possibilities to reduce it.
13. If you start to take hormones and you realize the first changed it is time to give up the hiding. You will present yourself in your new gen-der. You will meet people to whom you had only little contact.some of them won't accept your new gender, some after the transition, some never.but this is not your problem, it is theirs. Do not make it to your own.
14. It is for you almost unacceptable for you to present yourself in your old gender. Start, especially if you really want the transition to pre-pare your employer and colleagues. It is sometimes helpful to change your name to a gender neutral one that anybody takes this changes as real and seriously.
15. At one day you stand in front of a mirror and you see a woman/man. There are no doubts anymore. You are truely you eant to be. It doesn't make a different if other people accept it or not. No matter how you live. You watch yourself and you know this is a woman/man. Nothing can change this anymore adnd questioned it.
In this moment you are truly a woman/man.when ever it happens, after many years or yesterday. You are what you are. But just in another gender.
So far so good.
when i just reflect this on my own there are a lot of important views.
Just for me i
I just want to tell you something else. I was running tonight and afterwards i needed a shower. But before i took the shower i took a shaver and conti-nued to shave me. I really don't like the hairs anymore. It looks so silly. The good thing afterwards my skin is so soft. It is just a good feeling. To wear nylons, a slip and a bra under the usual man clothes. I do this quite often and i really like it. Then i went out for dinner. But to be honest. What i re-ally wanted tonight was to go out as a woman. How many of you have the same feeling, the same desire, the same demand?
The interesting thing is that this comes always when i am alone. Just a bit of strange. Why only when i am alone?
I looking forward for tomorrow afternoon. I am finally back home again and i will go to the post office to pick up three packages. Inside there is a whole set of nails and everything you nedd to wear artifical nails, then my new pink and black leggings, blue and pink shirts and new nylons. When i am at home inwill try all of these and spend the evening as a woman. Maybe i will go out and walk a little bit around.
No comments:
Post a Comment