The first step is done

Hi everybody,

tonight it was too much. When i returned from work i went running and afterwards i wanted to take a shower but instead i started to shave my arms (my legs are already shaved) and felt so disappointed about at how many places hairs are grown. i do not want them. And after shaving i took a shower and my arms feel so soft, so great. It does make a real difference between to be hairy or not. Then i wanted to go out for dinner and i decided to wear a slip, a nylon and a bra under my shirt and jeans, but all i wanted was to go out as a woman tonight. It was such a strong desire and it is still there. So when i returned from dinner, i needed a cafe.

My female side or just the one i am just started to write a email to the therapist, but only to test if it is really possible to find the correct words to express what i am feeling, what i want. it was so easy. I found the correct words, corrected one or two sentences and i was quite happy with it. So i sent it out.

i will post this later, i just have to translate it into english.

Now i'm feeling really nervous but on the other hand excited, it is just the only way to deal with the whole situation. But right now i think it was the best what i was able to do and i am looking forward to read the answer and to get an appointment.

Does anybody of you dear reader have any experience with therapists?

Thanks to good friends who encouraged me to do this.

More tomorrow, just to let you know.

Simone